oh, my.

I apologize in advance. I was bored out of my mind...

In Fairbanks, Alaska it is illegal for a moose to walk on the side walk.

It is against the law to whale hunt in Oklahoma.

In Michigan, it is illegal to chain an alligator to a fire hydrant.

In Alabama it is illegal to carry a comb in your pocket, because it may be used as a weapon.

Phobatrivaphobia:Fear of trivia about phobias

fuck

I need to get out. I need to go someplace where its just me and my thoughts. I can't stand being around my family anymore. It's time for me to leave. I want to get out of the house and be gone for a loooong time. I can't stand my stupid brat of a little sister.

I hate this godforsaken town I live it. It's too fucking small. I hate it. I want to get out or just disappear for a while. I'm so tired of trying to reason with my stupid little demon of a sister. I am giving up on trying to win anything anymore. I'm so tired of everything. I just want to drive to someplace where I don't know anyone and I don't have to talk to anyone and everyone will just leave me alone. I have too much bottled up inside, I'm about to explode. I don't know if I am capable of keeping it in much longer.

The delete key is my favorite thing at the moment.
There is so much that you will never see.
that you will never know.
that you will ever hear.

I feel like a total loser, but I don't know how to deal with this. I don't even know whats wrong.

....well then....That was my little mental breakdown.
I hate those....

everything will be fine once its spring break and I can just get away from the loser people at school and just all that and just relax...which is what I really need.

I am pouring my heart into everything I do, and get little back and that just gets to me. I shouldn't let it get to me...but I do.

I guess this is way that I tend to just expolde and let what's in my head to have a release valve...but it doesn't let everything out...or that would be bad.

I hate the weather. I want it to be warm.
I love Carolina Liar.

I want a macbook...my dad has been telling me that that's what I would be getting when I graduate...but no...now I have to get a stupid PC. I don't want a goddamn PC. I want a mac.

I don't want to minor in music. I want to minor in photography. I don't know if i want to keep my major anymore. The more I look into it, the more difficult it seems...and I'm nervous.. I don't know if I am ready for all of this. I'm not sure if I am ready to just make new friends when I finally found ones that I know will always be there. The closer graduation comes...the more nervous I get. I mean, I'm only going to Memphis...but i'm still scared.

I need some coffee or something. I hate crying. I started today in band. I almost had a breakdown. Spring break isn't coming fast enough. I need it now. I need to get away for a while.

I'm going over to Megan's to watch CSI tonight. I love her, she always makes me feel better. She's not really a junior to me, she seems older than me. I look up to her. She is pretty much how I want to be...hopefully one day I will be as strong as her.

*sigh*

well...I think thats enough of a release for now...
sorry for this utterly depressing thing....but, I mean, everyone has these days, and you just got to let it out somewhere.

so yeah

I scored a goal in my lacrosse game ! :D

I really want the new Bo Burnham cd. I have enough money on my iTunes account....but i'm cheap.
so....can you say graduation present....? :)))



spring break is this coming week !!


66 DAYS UNTIL GRADUATION.


im so boring....

SNOW

is so much fun. We got around 6 inches. which is a ton for here. It was real snow too. not the gross ice kind that gives you a massive bruise if you chunk it at someone. it was so much fun.

too bad it was on a weekend. Its just not as fun on a weekend. Its so much more fun if you're missing school. but oh well.

Prom is coming up....in 3 months. Everyone is already being all frantic about it. They are making a huuuuge deal. I could really care less. Yeah, its senior prom. but come on. I'm not going to spend a buttload of money. Tickets are going to be like90230498 bucks. then a limo. then food. i'll pass on the food. just give me mcdonalds or something. and i'll be good. but whatever. i can tell that all this hype will end up bringing me down.

i havn't written in my journal or on here in foreverrr. like really written. its dissappointing. there was something i wanted to say, but i can't remember. guess it wasn't that important.

i went and saw taken last friday. holy smokes ! it was super good. i love it. go see it if you havn't. after mel, catava and i went to starbucks and to our surprise there was a battle of the bands there. and it was super fun. I hung out with lauren g. hopefully my future roomie if i ever get a call back from memphis. but yeah. it was ballin. the next one is march 13 at square beans. lauren and i are gunna find us a man. hahaha. we so weird. but i love us.

so yeah. i took my national french exam today. and i think i got about 3 right. that bitch was hard.

i got hit in the face yesterday at lacrosse. oh it felt wonderful ! but i was fine. that will teach me to stay out of the shooting lane of the opponent. haha.

i want the musicfest lineup to come out. i want to know who is playing ! i hope ben folds comes again. and actually plays. that would make my life. seeing ben folds play. i love him.

friedchicken.