It's really sad

how I've lost the friends who I thought I was closest too. The people I grew up hanging out with, the people I have the most memories with. I feel like it could be my fault, but its not all mine. I feel like a part of my past really means nothing. That everything might have just been fake.



After graduation and all the graduation parties, that was, I guess, my final goodbye. I havn't talked to those people since then. I hate it. I didn't want that to happen. But, I guess thats what is and what will happen.



The more I look forward to college, the better it looks. The more friends, new possibilities, new image, new everything. Just a fresh start. thankgoodness.



It is like I have in a way, just replaced these old friends who have been by my side all my life. But it seems to be for the best. They weren't the first people I would call up for a shouulder to lean on. But they were on the list of people to call. I never felt like I was truly accepted with them.



Wow, repeat of last blog? Yes.



I need some new stuff.



hmmmm...lets see here.



Fathers Day. Yeah, lets start there.

So I got some new sunglasses today. They are fake ray bans. I'm thinking about buying some real raybans, but I don't trust myself, I loose things too easily.

I need to find a freaking job.. But, no place is hiring. AT ALL. Major suckage.

I really want to play some lacrosse. I miss it. I need to. I can't wait to start school. woooooo.

I don't know what to write...everything I do write, I delete it cause I'm scared if that person will read it and get pissed and so the drama begins. so just screw that.

Its time to let go of the past, Lucy. Shut up and move forward. I need to stop being dumb. and go for a run.

and thats what ima do...tomorrow...cause its late and i could get kidnapped.

you know whats really sad? With all the technology in the world today, no one has created smell-o-vision. I hate this.

BAHAHAHA I just read one of my old notes on facebook. I totally forgot about this

"So today I went to the Fresh Market to get some Orangina. But somehow I found myself on the Ice Cream Aisle.I was looking at my favorite ice cream, Cookie dough, and I then looked at the price, $7.32.I was like WTF. Why the deuce is ice cream $7.32 ?!I picked up the box and started reading.It said vegitarian...I would like to know what jerk at the ice cream factory is sneaking meat into my cookie dough ice cream"

bahahahaha.

you know what I also want to know. Who the hell came up with ties? Who would look down at their shirt and be like "Hmmm, I think there needs to be a piece of fabric here." I mean really?! whaaaaaaat?

When it's raining it's like the clouds are pissing on us.

you know how people sit in a chair backwards...why not toilets?

sometimes i wonder if when a volcano errupts...its like it has flatulance.

i hate birds.

don't throw rocks at people...why the hell would you do that anyways?

bubbles are the most bipolar thing in this entire world...one minute they're up the next minute they're down.

You know when you have a dream within a dream...that's trippy

penguins can't fly, I suggest we attach 200 balloons to it so it knows what it's missing

I want a tee shirt, made of t's

A E I O U and sometime Y because he doen't like to hang out with those fuckers all the time

bahahahahaha. Where did I come up with these?!

augh I miss my gbf.